week 7 (s'mores and whoopie pies!)

weight

5/8- 124.8

5/15- 120.2

5/22- 120.2

5/29- 121

6/5- 116.8

6/12- 117

6/19- 117.6

6/26- 115

first i want to say thanks for reaching out to me this last week. I felt so much love and support from you guys! HUGS! to you all.

Second please don't ever feel bad for me when i have a bad day(s) or week. Its all part of it and i'm just trying to be honest so you can understand what this process is about. If you scroll down you can see my progress pictures and know I'm doing quite well.

this week i changed my food around, didn't really mess with the intake itself just moved it around so i could have some carbs in the morning before doing my 4am cardio. This seem to help, a lot, i felt good and got in some strong work outs which i believe led to the weight drop i had this week. I didn't feel like an angry bear and had a clear head all week, well almost a clear head. I had an incredibly hard time trying to figure out how to cash a check and deposit some money in the bank, i left my dogs outside all morning, which is really bad because i live in an apartment complex! the front porch gate was closed thank goodness but the thought of leaving my front door open is still kind of scary!!

I couldn't stop thinking about s'mores and whoopie pies! Whoopie pies are NOT moon pies but, a Maine tradition and my mom made the best! (google to learn the difference)In fact all week all my conversations evolved around food, I seem to notice all the food billboards around town and every commercial on TV was a food commercial! Going to the grocery store has to be the biggest test i face every week. Whole Foods is just bad! Its not the "junk" food that is tempting but the grapes, melons, bananas, peanut butter.... stuff i just can't eat right now.

I bought 9 cook books this week.... i don't know about this one guys, i just read them... so if anyone has a few cookbooks laying around, pass them my way! It would save me some Money!! ha,ha! i'm treating myself to a sweet potato with my fish tonight instead of the oatmeal! I thought that would be a fantastic way to end a good week!

week 8 here I come!

progress pictures

WEEK 6 (nearly quit!)

weight

5/8- 124.8

5/15- 120.2

5/22- 120.2

5/29- 121

6/5- 116.8

6/12- 117

6/19- 117.6

oh man it was a rough one! i cried almost everyday, and said i'm sorry for being such a grump to many! Tuesday is by far the hardest day for me to get through mostly because of working sooo much and my short day (thursday) seems so far away!

This thursday i sat in my car cried after my coach saw me in my bikini and proceeded to double my cardio sessions. I then did something i have never done before during contest prep... i went off the plan, i had some justin's maple almond butter and a peice of dark chocolate! boy was that delicious! i didn't feel guilty and enjoyed every bite! i got right back on track and felt good. I want to say thanks to all the people i don't know who have stared at me, (and my arms) who have made comments on how wonderful i look and how they wish they could look like me! Yup its these comments that keep me going, keep me believing that changes are happening. The scale doesn't tell the story!

this Journey has made me dig deep and take a look at my life and where i want to be in the future, and i will let you in on this. i want to be near my family in the near future. When i started this i never had any intentions of winning the contest but i wanted a goal.

"without goals you have no direction; without direction there is no incentive for action; without action there is no progress..."

think about that, progress i am making and it might not show on the outside but the progress on my heart and soul has me excited!

like my girl whitney said... i 'm so close but still far away. i head into this week with my eyes on the future.

I'm sorry for being grumpy, its not you its me! and you might want to stay away from me on tuesdays!

"shoulders down, chest up, abs tight!"

WEEK 5

weight

5/8- 124.8

5/15- 120.2

5/22- 120.2

5/29- 121

6/5- 116.8

6/12- 117

Hitting the half way point. Normally most people feel great a this point saying things like " i'm going to maintain at this weight when the show is over" and very rarely can someone do this. for me heading into week 6 i feel a little behind. didn't help that while working with my posing coach he says something to the effect, "well we will have to get rid of the fat to see your abs" ...

it was a crazy week, i saw my trainer, my choreographer, my posing coach, and the suit making lady! but its all the little meetings that keep each day exciting and keep me on track. and for those of you who wonder why i work so much, well here ya go!

I'm sure my training plan (cardio and nutrition) will get an over haul on thursday. part of me says bring it, yet often i get worried it will be to much.

About friday i started missing the social part of life. Lunch with friends, a guinness and a Red Sox game. (they are killing it right now! :) ), a late night movie... can't stay out late when i have to get up at 3am. i have also started thinking about food a little more. but i think seeing the cupcake truck post its location everyday on Face Book is to blame for that!

i think the bottom line for this contest being a little more challenging then normal for me is the lack of sleep.

i can't fix that right so i will continue to push forward.looking forward to my half way point photo's next sunday. Gosh i hope there is some change!

Keep flex'n my friends!

WEEK 4

weight

5/8- 124.8

5/15- 120.2

5/22- 120.2

5/29- 121

6/5- 116.8

All is well....NOW! lets start with last friday my fridge broke but i didn't really notice until monday. then i started have severe stomach aches, bring you to your knees stomach aches! i was rolling around on the floor in pain at my coach's gym and he says "get up and finish these exercises..." i laughed but did it. he proceeds to ask my about the pains in my gut and then says "no more gum!" i'm thinking,Whoa...thats all i got...but do as i'm told and give him ALL my gum. 8 packs i place on his desk, he just shakes his head.Well what do you know the scale starts dropping the next day and no more stomach pains. I let out a huge sigh of relief as i'm sure you all did when you saw my weight today.

I also met with my favorite choreographer to put together my routine. Its sweet!

Tomorrow i go see the best bikini maker in the country, Christine Marsh, to pick out the material for my new suit. Its going to be purple!

My meals are all tasting real good except for the piece of cod i have to eat every night. This week i got to have 5 strawberries instead of the apple in the afternoon, they tasted soo good. I think the more you go without crap food in your daily intake the better the good food taste. So once again the week started off, not so good, and its ending on a high! never quit, dig deep and plow through...like my bulldog does the snow! and yes people are starting to stare at me, which means..."its happening" :)

oh the picture is the book i read when i go to bed at night. i'm serious! i always read cook books when training for a show.

sweet dreams!