weight
5/8- 124.8
5/15- 120.2
5/22- 120.2
5/29- 121
6/5- 116.8
6/12- 117
6/19- 117.6
6/26- 115
7/3- 113
7/10- 112
7/17- 110.8
7/24- 114
even my shoes are too big! that being said...I almost lost it last night after a nightmare of a week. If there would have been anything in my cupboards, freezer, fridge i would have eaten it, anything. well i did eat whatever i could find!
The week started out fantastic, i felt wonderful after my photo shoot. i knew my weight was to low last weekend and planned a cheat meal after my photo shoot. i went to Noodles and Company and got some Mac and Cheese with extra cheese sauce, chicken, tomatoes and mushrooms. A huge rice crispy treat for dessert! Yup! its true! AND while i was waiting for my food i ate a chocolate chip cookie! i felt great and had tons of energy the next day. from there my the suit maker called and said my suit was not ready for pick-up. She did this four times this week and when i finally got my suit....not good... lets just say i'm 3 days from leaving to Vegas and i still don't have a suit to wear. My choreographer canceled our finally appointment to clean and fix my routine. i met with some wonderful locally trainers and did get to practice posing and my routine with them, but they said my routine was to short and though they have been a blessing, helping me with advice on my posing i left feeling skinny, squishy and hopeless. not sure if i mentioned my training coach left me at about week 4. (thats a story not to share here, i respect him and don't want to bash.) so last night i was told to keep eating and feeling like a wet noodle or should i say a piece of angle hair pasta. (noodle would be way bigger) i imedately throw a sweet potatoe in the microwave and ate it in a matter of seconds, next came the brown rice cakes...6 or maybe even 8 of them, i lost count. opening and closing every food storage unit over and over again i finally found 2 very old protein bars...ate them and way in the back of my freezer...Andes' Candies! SCORE!! ate about 8-10 of those." whoa nelly, what the heck was happening? what am i doing?!" finally i came to my senses, i was full i looked like i had a basketball in my gut!
what now....
woke up even more confused. do more cardio? cut carbs? ... i decided just to keep moving forward, 5am cardio, eggwhites, 2 brown rice cakes (which i didn't want after overdosing on them last night) and then spin class... during cardio i messaged my posing coach who i see on wednesday, he hasn't seen me in almost 4 weeks and was in another state competing himself. i hated to bother him but was desperate.
after cardio i was walking through the gym and the head guy, chairman, promoter for all our competitions here in Colorado stop and said..."Doneker you look great!" "You are ready, don't do to much more." HAPPY DANCE!! i didn't ruin my hard work! yea!! not long after that i get a return message with some specific instructions on what to do for the next 3 days! and some encouraging words. " don't worry i see you wednesday and will make sure you are right where you need to be when you step on stage." so my head is back on and i feel good again.
back to business tomorrow, i thought i was going to stop cardio but nope 3 more days. so nothing is changing and that feels comfortable.
By now you all know how much i love baking. and recently i have been noticing how all these heavenly treats are being served. I now have an obsession with cake stands, and different ways to serve baked goods. It makes ordinary cookies seem so much more, its all about the presentation! and i'll take that to the stage next saturday and maybe i'll have the right presentation! in the end i'm SOOO ready to move forward with my life. Start baking again, antique hunting for cool cake stands and being social with people who mean so much to me and have missed these last 11 weeks!
maybe when this is done i'll start blogging about my adventures in the kitchen....
high five to the last 6 days!!
good luck
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