COMPLETE MOTIVATION

bringing me back!

2011-09-12T16:44:00.001-07:00

Many people have told me they miss my writing so i will get better at keeping it up to date!

It all stops today!

i was thinking during my work out today how hard it must be for people to have faith in reaching their fitness goals. I even feel doubt these days and if i didn't have my past success to feed upon i might even quit. (i feel you guys, really!)

I'm just back from vacation, i went to Maine to see my mom and let me tell you she can cook! she made all my meals and i didn't have to plan, prep or think the slightest bit about what to eat. that was a nice break. (thanks mom!)

stuff shells, blueberry pie, brownies, pizza, lobster, (which isn't bad until you soak it in butter!) ha! I did eat lots of fresh veggies and organic meats. it was all wonderful and i don't regret anything but i can tell you this, as good as all that food tasted and didn't come close to the satisfaction i feel when i'm in tip-top shape. it doesn't feel as good as someone coming up to me and saying" you inspire me". So today i choose to bring me back!

I choose to eat healthy.

I choose to work out in the gym.

I choose to do my cardio at 4am

I choose to run at least 3 times a week.

I choose to be as inspiring to others as i can!

thats what it is... a choice!

i leave you with this, i found this on utube and it really Hit hard!

this is how what i truly believe...

I BELIEVE IT STARTS ONE STEP AT A TIME AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE MY DREAMS WILL TAKE ME.

I BELIEVE THE WORLD IS MY TREADMILL.

I BELIEVE MY BIGGEST INSPIRATION IS THE PERSON IN FRONT OF ME.

I BELIEVE IN SOLITUDE AND COMMUNITY.

I BELIEVE NO DECISION SHOULD EVER BE MADE WHILE RUNNING UP HILL.

I BELIEVE THAT WHEN I THINK ITS OVER, I CAN ALWAYS DIG A LITTLE DEEPER.

I BELIEVE IN REDEFINING MY IMPOSSIBLE

I BELIEVE IN MYSELF!

make it a great week!

Embarrassed!

2011-08-14T15:15:00.000-07:00

complete failure... i told you i would be completely honest in my blog... the scale read 126.2 this morning. Yep! I'm embarrassed to share that but it is also the truth about competing and the part no one talks about. i hope anyone who thinks extreme dieting is the way to the "skinny you" reads this. I can't explain why the body does this but it is so mentally painful to go from displaying an awesome physique to 14 days later weighing more then when the diet started. People don't think i can relate to their weight issues, yo-yo dieting and loss of control when it comes to food, well i can!

I have been competing for many years and have gone through this "after effects" many times but it never gets any less embarrassing. I know my body will eventually normalize out and i'll drop about 8lbs. but not many others know this so i get comments like "you bulking up already!" or "you are really enjoying your off season." i feel like an ass.

my systems were clogged up 'till about wednesday. what i mean by that is nothing was digesting, my stomach was stretch out and hard as a rock, and it just hurt to eat. Now i haven't been eating THAT bad just trying to be normal. (lots of fruit, bowls and bowls of fruit and pasta) i was extremely sluggish, and tired. then on wednesday "swollen gut syndrome" (my name for it) was gone and i had lots of energy. Things get dangerous now, food starts to taste yummy, and you are hungry... all the time! Think of a clogged sink, the water just kind of sits in the sink maybe slowly draining leaving scum stuck to the sides. then you unclogged the sink and water just flows down the drain, usually faster then before the clog... does that make sense? alright moving on! ha!

i did do an hour cardio on monday, ran 2.5 miles on wednesday, taught spin on friday, and 1 hour of cardio this morning followed by teaching a spin class. Not like i sat around all week!

i had major cramps through out my entire body this week, hands, chest, legs, feet and i could not sleep through the night with out waking up screaming in pain. Thank goodness i live alone!

i swore up and down i was going to eat "clean" all week, but i could not resist the temptations that were in front of me. so now i'm totally beaten! fat and mentally weak....

DON'T worry my friends a new week is upon us and i will keep trying to get a grip. i will try to find that balance of healthy eating but not dieting and i'm exciting to try some new "clean" foods. I bought apple butter today, its just apples smooshed and put in a jar! tee hee but i hope to replace my sugar free jelly on my rice cakes with this apple butter so i can eat more of a "real" food. i also found a zero calorie raspberry sparkling green tea. that might help with cravings.

my egg whites are cooked for tomorrow as well as my protein pancake and now i'm on my way to put some fish in the oven. I know this week will be better!

RECAP - I CAN DO ANYTHING!

2011-08-07T17:37:00.001-07:00

Well I'm kind of at a lost for words, what do you want to know?.... Most people ask "where did you place?" which for you guys who have followed me the last 12 weeks understand when i say "i finished!" others just stare at me...LOL! then i try to explain, its like running a marathon, it doesn't matter where i finished but the point being, I DID IT! i actually felt like i won after my photo shoot and i looked at the pictures and saw my body and how it changed, pictures are always a great way to REALLY see yourself. (good and bad)

I did not place well. nearly last i think. I'm truly and honestly content with that, because i like my body. yes, i could do things to change it and please the judges but for me its not about them, its about me and right now i feel like i can do anything... and i can do it all by myself!

I still think you have to be at least a little bit crazy to compete in such an event but i also think marathon runners are a little bit crazy too!

I have eaten all the "junk" i can handle and now will take on a bigger challenge, how to live normal but healthy life, one i think you can all relate too... finding a balance between health and enjoying life. I have made a plan and it starts tomorrow, not sure i can hold myself to it but if i can... then i just might run a marathon! i will continue to blog my weekly success's and failure's and hope you all continue to follow along because i have a feeling things are going to get exciting!

Week 12- I did it!

2011-07-31T21:19:00.000-07:00

night before i leave!

2011-07-27T21:39:00.000-07:00

ok just a quick check in

i was 110.4 lbs this morning.

my posing coach said i was ready and he was impressed.

cravings were bad today.

here's a picture of the "trash" i bought to bring to the hotel and eat After the show. I couldn't decided on any special but know i'll want something. the thing is that not matter what i eat it won't live up to the expectation or satisfy, so i never eat my favorite things right away. Gosh just thinking about how bad these little treats are for you...might not eat anything but the cliff bars.

got my suit fixed, it looks really good and somehow crawled over another hill. (thanks Laura Richards)

still things to do and it getting late....

week 11- even my shoes are to big!

2011-07-24T16:52:00.000-07:00

weight

5/8- 124.8

5/15- 120.2

5/22- 120.2

5/29- 121

6/5- 116.8

6/12- 117

6/19- 117.6

6/26- 115

7/3- 113

7/10- 112

7/17- 110.8

7/24- 114

even my shoes are too big! that being said...I almost lost it last night after a nightmare of a week. If there would have been anything in my cupboards, freezer, fridge i would have eaten it, anything. well i did eat whatever i could find!

The week started out fantastic, i felt wonderful after my photo shoot. i knew my weight was to low last weekend and planned a cheat meal after my photo shoot. i went to Noodles and Company and got some Mac and Cheese with extra cheese sauce, chicken, tomatoes and mushrooms. A huge rice crispy treat for dessert! Yup! its true! AND while i was waiting for my food i ate a chocolate chip cookie! i felt great and had tons of energy the next day. from there my the suit maker called and said my suit was not ready for pick-up. She did this four times this week and when i finally got my suit....not good... lets just say i'm 3 days from leaving to Vegas and i still don't have a suit to wear. My choreographer canceled our finally appointment to clean and fix my routine. i met with some wonderful locally trainers and did get to practice posing and my routine with them, but they said my routine was to short and though they have been a blessing, helping me with advice on my posing i left feeling skinny, squishy and hopeless. not sure if i mentioned my training coach left me at about week 4. (thats a story not to share here, i respect him and don't want to bash.) so last night i was told to keep eating and feeling like a wet noodle or should i say a piece of angle hair pasta. (noodle would be way bigger) i imedately throw a sweet potatoe in the microwave and ate it in a matter of seconds, next came the brown rice cakes...6 or maybe even 8 of them, i lost count. opening and closing every food storage unit over and over again i finally found 2 very old protein bars...ate them and way in the back of my freezer...Andes' Candies! SCORE!! ate about 8-10 of those." whoa nelly, what the heck was happening? what am i doing?!" finally i came to my senses, i was full i looked like i had a basketball in my gut!

what now....

woke up even more confused. do more cardio? cut carbs? ... i decided just to keep moving forward, 5am cardio, eggwhites, 2 brown rice cakes (which i didn't want after overdosing on them last night) and then spin class... during cardio i messaged my posing coach who i see on wednesday, he hasn't seen me in almost 4 weeks and was in another state competing himself. i hated to bother him but was desperate.

after cardio i was walking through the gym and the head guy, chairman, promoter for all our competitions here in Colorado stop and said..."Doneker you look great!" "You are ready, don't do to much more." HAPPY DANCE!! i didn't ruin my hard work! yea!! not long after that i get a return message with some specific instructions on what to do for the next 3 days! and some encouraging words. " don't worry i see you wednesday and will make sure you are right where you need to be when you step on stage." so my head is back on and i feel good again.

back to business tomorrow, i thought i was going to stop cardio but nope 3 more days. so nothing is changing and that feels comfortable.

By now you all know how much i love baking. and recently i have been noticing how all these heavenly treats are being served. I now have an obsession with cake stands, and different ways to serve baked goods. It makes ordinary cookies seem so much more, its all about the presentation! and i'll take that to the stage next saturday and maybe i'll have the right presentation! in the end i'm SOOO ready to move forward with my life. Start baking again, antique hunting for cool cake stands and being social with people who mean so much to me and have missed these last 11 weeks!

maybe when this is done i'll start blogging about my adventures in the kitchen....

high five to the last 6 days!!

week 10- good one!

2011-07-18T20:55:00.000-07:00

weight

5/8- 124.8

5/15- 120.2

5/22- 120.2

5/29- 121

6/5- 116.8

6/12- 117

6/19- 117.6

6/26- 115

7/3- 113

7/10- 112

7/17- 110.8

i'll write when i gots some time but right now a girl has got to get to bed!

ended the week with a fabulous photo shoot and if this all ended today i would feel happy and satisfied!

muah!

week 9- 20 DAYS!

2011-07-10T15:44:00.000-07:00

weight

5/8- 124.8

5/15- 120.2

5/22- 120.2

5/29- 121

6/5- 116.8

6/12- 117

6/19- 117.6

6/26- 115

7/3- 113

7/10- 112

Thats what i keep telling myself "20 days" I"m getting real tired and about thursday i started getting hungry, i lick my plate and scoff every scrap of food i can find. i feel strong in the mornings and get some killer cardio in even thinking " i got this and even after the show i will continue with the program" by 2 in the afternoon reality hits and i and having a super duper hard time getting through my second session of cardio. i just keep saying "20 more days" just get on the step mill and move your feet. A big hurdle was tossed in front of me on tuesday, the gym i work at informed me i can no longer get my workout in during my shift. SO now i have to stay late... i'm talking 9pm-ish to get it in, i'm a walking zombie at this point (my first work out is at 4am) and my workouts have suffered. i feel a little betrade by my gym. they know i have a contest to comepete in , 3 weeks, why can't they give me 3 weeks to reach my gaol? Not to mention the members LOVE to watch me work out. They always tell me how i inspire them, how amazed they are at my hard work. Well i was really, really upset about this for a few days but, what can i do? its only "20 days" i give what i can and beyond that its out of my hands. As i head into week 10 i'm starting to get the "you are tiny" comments. its normal by the end of the week people will be telling me to go eat...i have to get that lean to create the "look" for stage. I still need my waist to come in a little and tighter in the legs.

the colorado state champions is this week end and i have a photo shoot set for sunday so i just got to get through the first of the week and hopefully the shoot and watching others compete will carry me through the last 10 days. some people think i'm on the down slide and it should be getting easier, well i will tell you it doesn't get easier as you go but harder. the body gets run down, hungry/cravings really start to take over and being so close your mind says " oh heck your close just give in a little" i will be digging deep this week! If anyone wants to join me for cardio it helps! even if you just stand there and talk to me! (thanks alyse!)

SO on to the pictures these are cake pops, on monday the girls at Fedex (my morning job for those who dont know, i work to much!)anyways the girls were talking about these "cake pops" i google them and now its has become my new craving.I think this has to do with how easy they are to make. i usually cook a lot during contest prep but haven't trusted myself this time not to eat what i bake so i've held off on my hobby of baking. These cake pops seems so easy to make i just can't wait to try them out!

i'm also starting to worry about the after effects of being on a such a strict eating program for soo long. Yes i have to put some weight back on, its just not healthy to live like this, my body and brain will shut down, as amazing as it is to see my body get tight and muscular, i do have to return to the normal healthy weight. Thats a huge mental game. One of the reasons i got out of the sport. ill get more into that in a later post for now i have to go cook my cod and head to the gym for another cardio session.

have a great week people and when you don't feel like exercising or eating healthy this week think of me..."what would Doneker do?" right Nina!! :)

hey, 20 MORE DAYS!!

week 8 - cruise control

2011-07-04T05:13:00.000-07:00

well i don't have much to report this week. I had a good week feeling strong and seeing improvements. I'm in a good routine with both my work outs and my food intake. I'll cruise through this week and then start to dial in the fine details next week. I'll most likely drop another 3 pounds. I'm trying to figure out what food i need to bring to Vegas with me and how i'm going to get it there...check a cooler full of egg whites???

i guess a mellow week is good right now!

weight

5/8- 124.8

5/15- 120.2

5/22- 120.2

5/29- 121

6/5- 116.8

6/12- 117

6/19- 117.6

6/26- 115

7/3- 113

week 7 (s'mores and whoopie pies!)

2011-06-26T14:30:00.000-07:00

weight

5/8- 124.8

5/15- 120.2

5/22- 120.2

5/29- 121

6/5- 116.8

6/12- 117

6/19- 117.6

6/26- 115

first i want to say thanks for reaching out to me this last week. I felt so much love and support from you guys! HUGS! to you all.

Second please don't ever feel bad for me when i have a bad day(s) or week. Its all part of it and i'm just trying to be honest so you can understand what this process is about. If you scroll down you can see my progress pictures and know I'm doing quite well.

this week i changed my food around, didn't really mess with the intake itself just moved it around so i could have some carbs in the morning before doing my 4am cardio. This seem to help, a lot, i felt good and got in some strong work outs which i believe led to the weight drop i had this week. I didn't feel like an angry bear and had a clear head all week, well almost a clear head. I had an incredibly hard time trying to figure out how to cash a check and deposit some money in the bank, i left my dogs outside all morning, which is really bad because i live in an apartment complex! the front porch gate was closed thank goodness but the thought of leaving my front door open is still kind of scary!!

I couldn't stop thinking about s'mores and whoopie pies! Whoopie pies are NOT moon pies but, a Maine tradition and my mom made the best! (google to learn the difference)In fact all week all my conversations evolved around food, I seem to notice all the food billboards around town and every commercial on TV was a food commercial! Going to the grocery store has to be the biggest test i face every week. Whole Foods is just bad! Its not the "junk" food that is tempting but the grapes, melons, bananas, peanut butter.... stuff i just can't eat right now.

I bought 9 cook books this week.... i don't know about this one guys, i just read them... so if anyone has a few cookbooks laying around, pass them my way! It would save me some Money!! ha,ha! i'm treating myself to a sweet potato with my fish tonight instead of the oatmeal! I thought that would be a fantastic way to end a good week!

week 8 here I come!

progress pictures

2011-06-26T14:26:00.000-07:00

WEEK 6 (nearly quit!)

2011-06-19T16:51:00.000-07:00

weight

5/8- 124.8

5/15- 120.2

5/22- 120.2

5/29- 121

6/5- 116.8

6/12- 117

6/19- 117.6

oh man it was a rough one! i cried almost everyday, and said i'm sorry for being such a grump to many! Tuesday is by far the hardest day for me to get through mostly because of working sooo much and my short day (thursday) seems so far away!

This thursday i sat in my car cried after my coach saw me in my bikini and proceeded to double my cardio sessions. I then did something i have never done before during contest prep... i went off the plan, i had some justin's maple almond butter and a peice of dark chocolate! boy was that delicious! i didn't feel guilty and enjoyed every bite! i got right back on track and felt good. I want to say thanks to all the people i don't know who have stared at me, (and my arms) who have made comments on how wonderful i look and how they wish they could look like me! Yup its these comments that keep me going, keep me believing that changes are happening. The scale doesn't tell the story!

this Journey has made me dig deep and take a look at my life and where i want to be in the future, and i will let you in on this. i want to be near my family in the near future. When i started this i never had any intentions of winning the contest but i wanted a goal.

"without goals you have no direction; without direction there is no incentive for action; without action there is no progress..."

think about that, progress i am making and it might not show on the outside but the progress on my heart and soul has me excited!

like my girl whitney said... i 'm so close but still far away. i head into this week with my eyes on the future.

I'm sorry for being grumpy, its not you its me! and you might want to stay away from me on tuesdays!

"shoulders down, chest up, abs tight!"

WEEK 5

2011-06-12T16:39:00.000-07:00

weight

5/8- 124.8

5/15- 120.2

5/22- 120.2

5/29- 121

6/5- 116.8

6/12- 117

Hitting the half way point. Normally most people feel great a this point saying things like " i'm going to maintain at this weight when the show is over" and very rarely can someone do this. for me heading into week 6 i feel a little behind. didn't help that while working with my posing coach he says something to the effect, "well we will have to get rid of the fat to see your abs" ...

it was a crazy week, i saw my trainer, my choreographer, my posing coach, and the suit making lady! but its all the little meetings that keep each day exciting and keep me on track. and for those of you who wonder why i work so much, well here ya go!

I'm sure my training plan (cardio and nutrition) will get an over haul on thursday. part of me says bring it, yet often i get worried it will be to much.

About friday i started missing the social part of life. Lunch with friends, a guinness and a Red Sox game. (they are killing it right now! :) ), a late night movie... can't stay out late when i have to get up at 3am. i have also started thinking about food a little more. but i think seeing the cupcake truck post its location everyday on Face Book is to blame for that!

i think the bottom line for this contest being a little more challenging then normal for me is the lack of sleep.

i can't fix that right so i will continue to push forward.looking forward to my half way point photo's next sunday. Gosh i hope there is some change!

Keep flex'n my friends!

WEEK 4

2011-06-05T18:32:00.000-07:00

weight

5/8- 124.8

5/15- 120.2

5/22- 120.2

5/29- 121

6/5- 116.8

All is well....NOW! lets start with last friday my fridge broke but i didn't really notice until monday. then i started have severe stomach aches, bring you to your knees stomach aches! i was rolling around on the floor in pain at my coach's gym and he says "get up and finish these exercises..." i laughed but did it. he proceeds to ask my about the pains in my gut and then says "no more gum!" i'm thinking,Whoa...thats all i got...but do as i'm told and give him ALL my gum. 8 packs i place on his desk, he just shakes his head.Well what do you know the scale starts dropping the next day and no more stomach pains. I let out a huge sigh of relief as i'm sure you all did when you saw my weight today.

I also met with my favorite choreographer to put together my routine. Its sweet!

Tomorrow i go see the best bikini maker in the country, Christine Marsh, to pick out the material for my new suit. Its going to be purple!

My meals are all tasting real good except for the piece of cod i have to eat every night. This week i got to have 5 strawberries instead of the apple in the afternoon, they tasted soo good. I think the more you go without crap food in your daily intake the better the good food taste. So once again the week started off, not so good, and its ending on a high! never quit, dig deep and plow through...like my bulldog does the snow! and yes people are starting to stare at me, which means..."its happening" :)

oh the picture is the book i read when i go to bed at night. i'm serious! i always read cook books when training for a show.

sweet dreams!

WEEK 3

2011-05-29T15:36:00.001-07:00

weight

5/8- 124.8

5/15- 120.2

5/22- 120.2

5/29- 121

well week 3 is in the books! i feel good but boy, oh boy, i was GRUMPY on saturday morning! It started out by me reading a post on Facebook that someone was taking their children to 2 movies and then to out to dinner. For some reason this really bothers me, "its a beautiful day get those kids outside and active", i wanted to yell! Why would you bother telling people you are going to sit for 5 or so hours then go eat.... what are we teaching our children!

I know you have all noticed my weight for the week, coach says he is not worried so i will not worry either. I know i look different because people are staring at me and the highlight of the week, i was training with my friend Katie and i whipped out a front double bicep and her eyes lit up and her jaw dropped to floor. "That looks amazing" "do it again" tehe! thats all it takes to keep me pushing forward. i am now up to hour of cardio everyday. I DO love every meal, OK cod every night is not the best but i'm doing ok with it. my newest favorite meal is pictured here. egg whites, with sugar free blueberry jam spread on the top and folded in half. I decided to ditch the apple that day and go big... raspberries!! sshhhh don't tell on me!

OH! how could i forget... i booked my trip to the big show, Las Vegas here i come. it feels good to have that all taken care and as of right now i'm going alone... shout if you want to come, i might need some baby sitting saturday night after i get off the stage. Even better i'll probably be a cheap date! HA!

this is really my fridge, the pile of white stuff on the upper shelf, right side, is my cod.

I have taken to lots of coffee this week it just taste sooo good right now and sometimes its decaf! also at any given time i can be found with 5 to 8 pieces of gum in my mouth and up to 20 packs in my car! The gum is a given i think for most competitors, I'll get tired of chewing a big wad in a few weeks and that will be the end of that!

Anyone ever hear of "Walden Farms" products...i'll be investigating and giving a full report. If you already use these products or know about them what do you think? Ranch dressing with no calories, sugar, carbs... hmmmmm?

Ok time to take my cod out of the oven, cook some broccoli and oatmeal. Have a great week everyone!

WEEK 2

2011-05-22T18:11:00.000-07:00

weight

5/8- 124.8

5/15- 120.2

5/22- 120.2

ok so as you can see, no weight change... its ok! i know if i stick to the plan it will happen.

-gonna make this quick 'cause i got to get to bed so i can get up and do cardio at 4am. yep, got to get it done. no excuses people! Monday my weight was down to 118 and i was excited, thinking it was going happen easy....WRONG! Tuesday i felt horrible and my weight started climbing back up (122 on thursday), i was so tired and grumpy buti didn't cave, i stuck strong, ate some steak and carried on. by friday i was feeling great! "I'm the boss" tehe! thats what i tell my dogs...as i write this i have 12 eggs boiling, rice in the rice cooker, fish in the oven, protein pancakes cooking. i heard a lot people tell me 2 weeks ago, "i want to diet with you" and now...not so easy right. the key is to plan and prep. i got in some great work outs this past week and i am sore everywhere... i love that. I'm increasing my cardio this week from 3 days to 5. plus i teach 2 spin classes a week. heading in to Monday feeling good. hope everyone has a great week! remember; PLAN AND PREP!

WEEK 1

2011-05-15T16:51:00.000-07:00

weight

5/8- 124.8

5/15- 120.2

Well my house stinks!! i'm a little nervous to have anyone over to visit, the aroma of broccoli, eggs and fish... lets just say its not good! the highlight of the week was when my coach told me i could eat 2 whole eggs before i go to bed instead of a protein shake! "really?! 2 scrambled eggs or hard boiled?" "yolks?" "really?" i think i told everyone that day i got to eat whole eggs! of course they just looked at me. i have a feeling those whole eggs will be reduced to egg whites. i have to put on my bikini next week for my coach. When coach says i need to see you in your bikini it most likely means he is cutting some food or upping my cardio or both.

heard a funny thing this week at the gym..."oh she is one of those people that doesn't eat" talking about me of course. WOW! i thought i'm so full from eating i feel like a bowling ball!

THE 12 WEEKS

2011-05-06T14:53:00.001-07:00

"12 weeks" a few people know what this means, and probably even fewer have been through them. Those of us who skip happily down this path have at least one thing on common, we are crazy! HA! I usually don't share much about my journey but this time i'm going to let everyone peek in on my 12 weeks to the competitive stage of Womens Physique.

Day 1 is tomorrow.

Today i cleaned out my cupboards and fridge, even though i feel strong enough (now) to resist any temptation i know i will have weak moments and open the cupboards and fridge over and over looking for something sweet to eat. I also had my picture taken in a bikini which i might share eventually but i'll have to work on some courage for that one! I went out to dinner and ate... and ate... and ate.

I'm ready, I'm ready for this trip...are you?

Foaming at the knees!

2010-04-23T14:14:00.000-07:00

foaming at the knees! – 5.16 mi / 00:48 09:16 pace

its true i was foaming at the knees! for those who don't live in denver, it was pouring here this morning, not just a rain but complete down pour! while working my morning gig at Fedex i went back and forth on whether to run outside or hit the treadmill. well i decided that if i had to run a race and it was raining i would run right?! i bet Ryan Hall runs in the rain! when i got to the park i saw a few others getting it done as well! As the 2 or 3 other runners approached i got the head nod, "good job for toughing out the rain" head nod. OR was it "your crazy too!" head nod. either way it felt good and was glad i went for it.
about mile 3 things started getting REALLY wet and heavy! as i passed an approaching runner i gave her the nod and she looked at me, or should i say my knees, with a weird stare i looked down and ...what tha?? my knees were covered in foam!! the only thing i can think of is there must have still been detergent in my pants, now i know the nods had nothing to do with being tough!

this is the typical stuff that happens to me on a daily basis!

what should i eat?

2010-03-04T10:37:00.000-08:00

WHAT SHOULD I EAT?
It amazes me how often i am asked this question. I'm not talking about the people training for athletic events but everyday people that say they want to be healthier. How can grown adults not know the difference between a healthy food and a not so healthy food. Maybe because i grew up in Maine with my grampa's garden suppling much of what went on the table or was i just lucky to have a mother that cared enough to teach me. I still find it hard to believe that people don't know, fast food is bad and fruits and vegetables are good. "eat your colors"- Big Bird

After getting frustrated with how often i have been asked "what should i eat", even after giving some people written list of healthy foods, a light went on! Maybe people are just asking the wrong question and what they really want to know is, "how can i add healthier foods to my meals but not do any cooking myself?" Now this question i can understand. People are busy! .....? ok People are lazy! I too live a busy life style, working three jobs starting at 4am and not getting home till 730/800 at night. But i still make smart food choices, prepare my meals, take them with me and always have a back up plan for eating something healthy when the original plan falls apart.(an apple in the car)

My biggest advice for someone who thinks they want to be committed to a healthy life style, PLAN! think about your meals, go to the grocery store and buy the foods to make your plan successful.

One of favorite excuses for not eating healthy..." i need to go to the grocery store" Come on people you KNOW you have to eat and the grocery store is probably the most logical place to help you with this task, stop being so lazy and get yourself to the store. Yes, grocery stores are open 24 hours!!

If you haven't been to the store in awhile i will tell you that most stores have made healthy foods very easy for us. The chicken is cooked for you, the vegetables are all cut up in bites size pieces, the fruit is right in front of you so if you think going to a fast food chain is easier then your just being lazy, get out of the dang car and walk into the store!!

Oh, by the way your children shouldn't be eating any different then you, teach them NOW!

The next time you "think" you don't know what to eat to be healthy, ask yourself, am i being lazy and not wanting to put time and energy into being healthy?

Crackers are not a healthy food choice!!

P.S. If you are training for specific athletic events nutrition can be more of a challenge, and i probably wouldn't consider you lazy. ;)

KILLED IT!

2010-03-01T15:09:00.000-08:00

finishing with my final run of the month 6.5 miles! i couldn't be more thrilled with how my first 8 weeks of my quest, to become a runner has transpired, and we haven't even gotten into longer days and warmer weather yet! i signed up for my first real 5k and will be giving it a go on sunday (march 7th) i'm hoping for sunshine ! After my 1st race next week the next thing i want to conquer in the 8.5 miles around the Aurora Reservoir. I find myself getting caught in between wanting to run faster or run farther.... only time will tell i guess.

oh! by the way i'm at 112 miles before march even got started!

2010-02-24T15:22:00.000-08:00

1 mile to go! yup i'm almost at my first running goal...whats next?

2010-02-12T13:33:00.001-08:00

74 miles done! 26 to go!

still running!

2010-02-06T13:09:00.000-08:00

I'm up to 63 miles of my first running goal to do 100 miles before the end of march. running has become an exciting hobby for me. I still wouldn't call myself a runner, maybe after my 1/2 marathon, but the days i have a planned run i get super nervous and sometimes think i don't want to do it. On the days i'm not supposed to run i miss it and can't wait for my next run. i now have some of the more expensive toys that real "runners" have. THE GARMIN! oh my, i just love this gps system that i wear on my wrist. last week i wanted to run fast and made myself sick, i feel like a little kid just learning life's lessons the hard way. first the shin splits because i didn't want to take a day off and let my body heal, then running so fast i over heated and the latest i can't seem to keep my heart rate monitor from sliding down to my waist. I have to ask the running gods of dailymile .com all kinds of silly questions, thank goodness they are all so helpful!

I still look forward to the day that i can just go out and run 6+ miles and have it be uplifting, then maybe i will call myself a runner!

GRRRR

2010-01-17T08:00:00.000-08:00

just a quick note that i have added 5 more miles to my totally this week but got sidelined on Wednesday due to extreme pain in my shins, some say shin splints , just keep going, some say don't push you might get stress fractures.... so for the past 4/5 days i have been researching and trying to find answers on the pain itself, running form, types of shoes...i have gotten no where. SO i will listen to my instincts and today i will try a run on softer ground (dirt path) and take it day by day. i will report later how it goes!

100 miles by the end of March - run #6

2010-01-10T14:17:00.000-08:00

OMG! i'm soo happy! i set out to run for 60 mins today, i have never run for more the 40. I DID IT! i might be able to call myself a runner pretty soon. I decided the best place for me to try to run for this long with no breaks would be on the treadmill. that way i could control my pace. I tend to start out fast and poop out after 30 mins. i forced myself to run an 11 min miles for the first mile then let myself find a comfortable pace. comfortable? ok, a doable pace. i did want to speed it up a few times but keep telling myself "hold on you still got a ways to go". My nike+ said i was running at 9'16" but the treadmill said 10'30" so i kept it there thinking i must some where in between. i was timing the 60 mins on my watch, watching the calories burned (i can usually do 100 cals every 10 mins) watching the miles on the treadmill, along with the pace and then every now and again i would check the nike+. my eyeballs got tired before my legs. ha! i had ATP from my favorite company, cyto-charge, and chocolate chip cookie before the run.

I fought through the lower leg pain, but other then that i think it was the boredom that was the toughest to deal with. wonder if i will be sore tomorrow?

what a great first week of running, total of 20 miles and 3,000 calories burns. i think thats 12 donuts! i'm looking forward to more....

77 miles to go!

100 miles by the end of March - run #5

2010-01-08T16:07:00.000-08:00

Finally a good run. it was 15 degrees and i still don't have gloves. but this is the best i have felt. I still need to slow down but getting four miles, outside, is a step forward for me! i exceeded my goals for this week and i still might run tomorrow. (or might not) i did have pain in my lower legs (pretty bad) but never once felt like stopping. the fresh air and sun shine made for a happy run!

83 miles to go!

100 miles by the end of March - run #4

2010-01-07T13:11:00.000-08:00

BRRR very cold out today, but i didn't run yesterday because it was snowing/cold. Couldn't wimp out 2 days in a row. This was an UGLY run, felt like i was going no where. i couldn't lengthen my stride, too many cloths and icey under foot, i have NO winter running gear and i ate mexican food 30 min. before the run. Snot was dripping out my nose, and down my throat and must say this is the closest i have come to walking ( and puking) while on a run. OH! and my shoe came untied!! try tying your shoe with frozen fingers and tears making it very blurry to see. I only got 2 miles in. BUT at least i stayed off the treadmill....

87 to go!

100 miles by the end of March - day #3

2010-01-05T12:44:00.000-08:00

I ran outside! got off the treadmill, faced my fear and ran almost 3 miles outside, like a real runner! boy was i frightened!! i didn't know how to dress, its cold, but sunny and i had know idea where to run.

so i put on 2 long sleeves and my warmest pants and just headed out the door. I dodged the ice and went through a gaggle of geese, through the snow when i didn't have a side walk (not sure i should be running on the road), i went up hill, down hill, and the sun blinding my sight and then at my back. I had tears running down my cheeks (cold and wind) and snot trying to drip. BUT.... I did it! My plan was to run for min. of 20 mins knowing that would be at least 2 miles and a max of 30 min because thats what i do on the treadmill. Well i ran for 22 mins! 2.84 miles. Thats what my nike+ says so i will call it 2 miles just so i don't cheat myself.

I was uncomfortable, to many cloths, i pod in my hand was bugging me but the entire run i was smiling inside, thinking, I'm running outside!

89 miles to go!

DAY 2- 100 MILES BEFORE END OF MARCH

2010-01-04T14:16:00.000-08:00

I was once again i was scared to start my run, thinking i wouldn't reach my gaol of 3 miles. i got moving and it wasn't so bad, the pace was a littler slower then i wanted but i told myself it was ok, don't think about the pace, just relax and get a rhythm. Like yesterday the first mile was hard but once i hit mile 3 i felt great! If i could learn how to clear my head while running i might actually start to like this running thing. My head is very loud when i run! I hit my 3 mile goal before my 30 mins was up so i figure i would just keep running till i hit that 30 min mark, well once that came i thought oh gee i can get 4 miles...but in the back of my mind i kept thinking, i have to teach spin in 40 mins... AND i was hurting all over from yesterdays run so i ran 4.39 miles and called it quits. Then i thought i should have just made it an even 4.5 miles, i always say that when i stop! i took 20 mins rest and went and jumped on the spin bike. I should sleep well tonight! I really don't have to run tomorrow but just might any ways. If i can run 3 5k's a week i should hit my goal...but like always, i got to do better then my goal

91.6 miles to go!

100 miles by the end of March-day #1

2010-01-03T13:54:00.000-08:00

I was so exciting get started on this personal goal but at the same time i have this huge fear of failing... how could i fail, i have run for 20mins many, many times. This goal is very easy to reach, really, i know people who run 100 miles in 2 weeks. running 20 mins 5 times a week, come on! I always feel like i have to run farther and faster then the time before. This is my biggest head game right now. I must learn to be comfortable with an easy pace and enjoy the run!

SOOO DAY #1

i got up early, put on my long shorts (its cold here in colorado) and headed to the gym, i really look forward to the day i don't have to use a treadmill but don't want to lose my pace of 9 min miles. My head is all over the place can't seem to get comfortable and stay focused. the first 12 mins were hell! but i refused to stop after 12 mins, gosh! how whimpy that would have been! then i caught the rhythm!! phew! i was trying not to look at my nike+ and just feel the pace. well i was getting close to the finish and thought i would check my pace on the treadmill, SHOOT! i hit the stop button and the treadmill just stopped!! i keep my feet moving to the rhythm i had in my head and jumped off and hit the indoor track...OH! what a great way to transfer my runs from the treadmill to the road. why didn't i think of that before?

Boy did it feel good to lengthen my stride and relax into the pace. I ended up running faster and longer then i set out to do that day. It wasn't easy and i pushed to keep the pace quicker then comfortable, my lungs were on fire BUT! i was very happy with my results !

4 miles down, 96 to go!

I wonder if I'll ever be comfortable just stepping off the door step and going for and easy 10 miler? ha!

2010

2010-01-01T17:01:00.000-08:00

don't have a lot to say but its the first day of 2010 and thought i better write something.... uhmm... well.... i could write about the the typical, new years goals, ... yes i have some but don't feel the need to broadcast them. I will say i think about my goals everyday. how about this...

1. i love my morning oatmeal

2. i wish i was as witty as my brother

3. my dogs bring me so much joy

4. i can't wait for spring!

there i posted!

I bet things will get much more interesting as i work towards my goals for 2010! ;)

IT IS NOT THAT EASY!

2009-10-09T08:52:00.000-07:00

I recently started a new challenge , running, and for some reason i get the impression from people that they think this would be easy for me, well i'm going to tell you IT IS NOT EASY! it is as every bit as hard for me as it is for anyone who adds a new activity to their lifestyle. staying healthy and fit is a choice for me not something i love. i know some of you are shaking your head is disbelief but its true. i have to remind myself how important working out and eating properly is. i love junk food as much as anyone and to sit in front of my TV or computer for hours very easy for me to do too.

I work three jobs, leaving the house before the sunrises and getting home after it has set. i still find time to get my workouts in. I have been getting up at 3am in the morning to run, to take on this new adventure in my life, IT IS NOT EASY! and now your saying "don't you need to sleep to be healthy" and the answer is yes! i get 8 hours almost every night, i don't sit in front of the tv or computer at night, i go to bed, IT IS NOT EASY! to leave the comfort of my warm bed to venture out into the dark, cold morning, IT IS NOT EASY! i have scoliosis which creates a lot pain in my back, hips and now i've started running my ankles have been freakin' killing me, ITS NOT EASY! I get tired, sore, unmotivated and frustrated just like you.

on the days i don't want to do it, i remind myself, i will never regret working out, and if i don't do it i will constantly think , i really should work out. (thats annoying brain clutter!)

sometimes i think people just like to think it comes easy for ME so they have an excuse for themselves when it is hard for them, "its just not that easy" I KNOW!!!!

so stop thinking about all the reasons why you can't put your health first and think of the reasons why you can and should!

2009-10-02T05:55:00.000-07:00

Its my last day of vacation! i have not worked out, run, ate anything healthy for 12 days. I now look forward to getting back in the game, the game we call life.

My photo shoot went really well. getting tons of great shots. i was very happy with the look i presented, healthy and fit, not "ripped" and depleted. i was looking at some competitors pictures yesterday and have decided my mind set has totally changed. I can't stand when i look at photos of beautiful girls who are so hard , with veins and paper thin skin, yuck! its just not reality or healthy and not what i want for myself. it was a very satisfying feeling when people say ,wow your great in you pictures and i can say "thanks, i was eating chocolate cake the week before at my husbands birthday party" Thats how it should be, enjoy life but stay healthy and fit!

So now what? i got 2 days left i will work on cleaning out my cupboards of all the junk and monday morning i will be back in my running shoes!! i will go back to saying no 80% of the time an picking and choosing a month in advance the occasions i will say "yes i would love some ice cream!"

Grocery Shopping!

2009-09-07T10:07:00.000-07:00

I'm 2 weeks out from a photo shoot and thought i would share what i bought for groceries this week! (i have to buy for my husband as well so not everything is for my consumption)

1 pacakage of chicken breast

3 bags of frozen chicken breast

4 gala apples

4 jazz apples (new kind i found!)

1 small seedless watermelon (for watermelon steak salad)

dole spring salad mix in a bag

organic oatmeal

2 greek yogurts (blueberry)

bulk walnuts

2 rolls of ground turkey (99% fat free, jenny'o)

deli turkey meat

surgar free popsicles

honey bbq chicken strips (tony's)

4 white potatoes (the kind wrapped up to throw in microwave)

4 cans of diced tomatoes

2 cans of tomato paste

3 Rachels cottage cheese, 50z container(all different flavors, trying them out hopefully will be something to share with clients if GOOD!)

feta cheeze (for watermelon steak salad)

smuckers sugar free jam (apricot, love it on oatmeal)

peperoncini's

coffee (french vanilla)

cyrstal light

dried berries and apples

strawberries

plums

mushrooms

eggs

sliced cheeze, reduced fat (for tony's turkey sandwiches)

sugar free chocolate pudding (tony's)

red onion

lemon juice

there you have it!!

client lunches?

2009-08-23T06:54:00.000-07:00

Ok folks i need some help with this one!! i have been hearing the excuse "i can't eat healthy because i have client lunches" can someone please explain this to me?? i will plead my ignorance here, is a client lunch when you go to lunch and talk business? is it rude or offensive when you eat with a client to choose healthy food? do you go to places that don't serve chicken or fish? i would think a business client would envy the fact you make healthy, smart choices and maybe you take care of business the way you take care of yourself. Then i hear "well when you eat out at client lunches everyday (really?, everyday you have client lunches?) its boring to eat chicken salad. Ok first who said you have chicken salad everyday, second I think being unhappy with the way you look and feel is boring AND depressing. I believe, and these are my beliefs so you don't have to agree, eating for excitement needs to be chosen wisely, weddings, birthdays, baby showers, date night with spouse, you get it right? If you have client lunches "EVERYDAY" and you can't eat healthy 90% of the time then boy oh boy ....

motivation

2009-07-04T04:14:00.000-07:00

Turn off the TV!! this has to be the biggest motivation killer!

i get a lot of motivation from the people in my life, i like to lead by example. having the ability to inspire others is a gift and i feel blessed to have it. thats a big motivation!

i love to read magazines, any kind of fitness magazine. (Oxygen being my favorite) i always turn to the work out sections looking for new exercises or old ones i haven't used in a while. i go through phases of jumping on the scale EVERYDAY, yup i do it, i know i teach people not to do just that,(weigh yourself everyday) but for me... it keeps me in check.

i try different work out supplements, i never stop taking my "fitness stack" from Cyto-charge, (www.cytocharge.com) but i do like to shake things up every once and a while by trying different pre work out drinks, "Super Pump" being one of my favorites...need to get some "Smash" from axis labs. i do get a kick out of "trying to feel the pump?" LOL!

i am also a people watcher, this works in two ways maybe even three... first, watching people at the gym is always more exciting then whats on TV. second, watching over weight people is such a big motivator to "keep the body moving" third, spotting the "in shape" people for sure makes me push a little harder!

i track my calories burn for awhile then i might switch to tracking my heart rate then i might switch to tracking my caloric intake.

there are so many ways to stay on top of what you are doing to the body it never gets boring!

but really people, try turning off the TV!! (no tv until the sun goes down) and see how much more active your day becomes. That is the bottom line, we must stay active. Im not saying you have to go to the gym more but just keep moving!

I'm not a super hero

2009-06-11T08:09:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i feel like getting into competing in fitness and figure has been one of the worst things i have ever done. I wonder when the day will come when its ok (with me) to live , look and eat like everyone else. I feel like i have caused people to have huge expectations of me, they always want to see how i look and what i eat. I, myself, am annoyingly aware of how i look and what i eat and yes i do feel guilty when i don't make the best choices or put on a few pounds, but to have people say "i can't wait to see what YOU order" when out to eat is a stab in my heart. I love that i can inspire others to be healthier but, the people pleaser in me is scared that i will disappoint the ones i inspire if i don't look and eat a certain way. When asked what do you EAT?!, how shocked they are when i tell them i'm no different then anyone else. I, probably more then most try to live a balanced life. Competing is so off to one end that when i'm not getting ready to get on stage i try to live every day as balanced as possible and enjoy the family bar-b-q's , birthdays, nights out with friends, baseball games.... i still workout nearly everyday but really hate myself on the days i don't feel like getting out of bed! Some might look at this like "thats good you need to stay active and fit and healthy. i wish i could make myself go workout" but to live with the feeling of disappointing the people around you and yourself can't be good right? I live to inspire others and teach them balance in life but wonder if in the end this will be what kills my spirit...the feeling other letting the ones i want to inspire down because i'm not a super hero. You may laugh at that last comment but its true, someone once said to me..." i forget you are human"

June 10 120.5

2009-06-10T16:20:00.000-07:00

5:00am 2 scoops of cyto-whey, 1/2 scoop of muscle milk

30mins of step mill

8:30 protein pancake

2:45pm 5oz of ground turkey,3/4 cup of rice (white) 1/2 cup of chopped aspargus

5:30 peach

7:30 1 corona, few tortilla chips and salsa, steak salad

was out to dinner with long time friends!

few jelly beans on the ride home.

june 9 123lbs

2009-06-09T17:59:00.000-07:00

6:00am 2 scoops of cyto-whey, 1/2 scoop of muscle milk

11:00am protein pancake

2:45pm 5oz of ground turkey w/diced tomato, 5 aspargus stalks, 3/4 cup of rice (white)

3:45pm 30mins on step mill

4:30pm leg workout

5:30pm apple

7:45 5oz grilled chicken breast,sliced cucumbers and radishes

sugarfree creamsicle (20 cals.)

june 8th 122.5lbs

2009-06-08T16:52:00.000-07:00

6:00 2 scoops of cyto-whey, 1/2 scoop of muscle milk.

9:00 protein pancake

11:30 spin class

12:30 1/2 cup of cottage cheese and 5oz sweet potato

2:45 (i was hungry!) 5oz of ground turkey cooked with a can of diced tomatoes, 3/4 cup of rice (white), 5 stalks of asparagus

6pm apple

7:30 3 hard boiled eggs (yolks too!) 1/2 cup of broccoli

sugar free creamsicle (20 cals)

food

2009-06-07T16:22:00.000-07:00

june 7th 2009/ 125lbs

6:00am 1/2 cup of oatmeal, mised 1 scoop of bio -whey and 2 Tbl spoons of sugarefree jelly.

9:00am protein pancake

11:30am 6oz chicken breast 3 strawberries. (would of had more berries but they were old and soft. yuck!)

12:30pm diet /sugarfree Rockstar and a cranberry Kind bar. (can be found at kingsoopers)

3:30pm peach

6:oopm 4oz salmon 1 1/2 cup of greean beans

is it really easier?

2009-04-26T14:50:00.000-07:00

One of my favorite things to do while i'm grocery shopping is to check out what other people are stocking their cubbards with (is that weird?) Today i found myself getting angry. I seem to notice lately that families with kids in tow have their carts loaded with JUNK! I just want to walk up to them and ask why? Do they think their children are immune to the damage that poptarts and cases of soda cause to the human body. Don't they want healthy kids that rarely get sick, miss school, have cavities, or how about childhood obesity? Won't happen to their kids i guess but what dice to roll! How about teaching children how to eat healthy so as they grow, they develop healthy habits and they don't become a statistic later in life? What a crazy idea uh? I know it must be hard to take care of children when you work a full time job, especially now that full time jobs are 50 hour weeks. Hmmm?, so its quicker to give children a bowl of Lucky Charms instead of Cherreos? I guess it does take a little longer to make a turkey sandwich then putting a frozen pizza in the oven... wait that doesn't take any "longer", it does take a little more work to put the sandwich together, but if you really think about it you could have the sandwich made and on the table before the pizza comes out of the oven. I can't think of any good reason to let children drink soda. Soda cost more then water and come on!, you don't have time to pour a glass of milk? An ice cold glass of lemonade is more refreshing on a hot day. OH!! kids don't like to eat the healthy foods... what? That has to be one of the craziest things i've heard!! Don't we teach the child or is there a certain age where they just don't like chicken and vegetables any more? I keep thinking that people are just lazy. Teach your children, lead by example, and get them involved in making healthy foods and finding the healthy foods in the grocery store. Make some home made oatmeal cookies, i'm pretty sure your kids will like them.

If you know your weeks are jammed packed with busy-ness prepare for the week in advance.

Think about your kids and do it for them, so they can feel good and be healthy!

not an option

2009-04-26T05:34:00.000-07:00

I prepare and pack my next days meals every night.If i don't think about my day and what i need to bring in my cooler when i leave the house i almost always fail!!

I Eat Bird food?

2009-04-07T12:47:00.000-07:00

I EAT BIRD FOOD!

What does that mean? Thats exactly what i said!! While eating my lunch a couple days ago, in the break room of a gym, an employee walked in and said "what are you eating? bird food again?" I found this comment very disturbing on many levels. I was eating a 6oz chicken breast, 1 cup of broccoli and a sweet potato. First, the employee was a personal trainer and i hope he doesn't tell people to be fit and healthy you gotta eat bird food but more importantly why do people think that because i compete in fitness contests that i never eat anything but "bird food"? It cracks me up that everyone thinks i eat gross tasting, boring, disgusting food! Get with it folks i eat healthy!! AND.....believe it or not, I do eat some not so healthy options every once and awhile. (Did you find the key words there?) i wish i could survive off chocolate chip cookies and fluffer-nuter sandwichs (marshmallow and peanut butter sandwich) If you have never had a fluff sandwich they are the best thing to come out of the east coast! (besides the Red Sox) But you can't survive off of food like that and thats what we need to let people know, because obesity doesn't need to be taking over this world! Yes i do understand it is harder for some people then others when it comes to dealing with weight issues but i don't believe its THAT much harder to grab an apple, instead of the candy bar, when you need a snack.

SO give me more "bird food" because i will take that any day over what comes with the candy bar. (tiredness, mood swings, lack of motivation, self esteem issues, medical bills and medication. The list goes on!)

So according to some I EAT BIRD FOOD!! and proud of it! :)

weather dependent.

2009-03-30T17:54:00.000-07:00

I am totally weather dependent!

When the clouds are thick and heavy my mood is thick and heavy,when the sky is clear and the sun is bright, I feel like I could rule the world!

I woke up this morning to snow falling and I decided I hated life. I wondered, why bother drinking my protein shake, a handful of jelly beans taste much better. I didn't want to work out, teach my spin class, eat my 2nd and 3rd meals that I packed in my portable cooler (i never leave home without it.) People who spend time with me know how I am about not missing meals! I moped around the gym waiting for my class to start. Oh! how I was dreading teaching in 90 mins. Yup! I had 90 mins to kill and couldn't even pick up a dumbbell!

I did teach my class and as the music thumped I could see the sun peaking out from the clouds thats all it took and I was happy! sweat dripped down my neck and I felt 5 times stronger then when I walked into the gym. I cranked up the resistance on my bike and loved the pain that shot through my pumping legs! WOO! HOO! Ok maybe it was the exercise itself , I know that what's your thinking right? I'm sure that had something to do with it but no sooner did the sun come out and here come the clouds again. I was done wanted to go home, forget working the rest of the day, i wanted my PJ's and the rest of the jelly beans!!

SOOO I'm Moving!! someplace where its warm and sunny!! I just think of all things I could do if the sun was bright all the time! I could rule the world!

ME

2009-03-29T13:10:00.000-07:00

This is me, certified personal trainer,spin instructor,fedex employee, fitness and figure competitor, wife and owned by three dogs,yes my dogs for sure own me!

start now!!

2009-03-29T05:36:00.000-07:00

Ok so i have been journaling (is that a word) for many years, i thought why not try and take it to the web? not sure how any of this works but I'm up for the challenge! I have to admit though not very good with computers I am for sure addicted to them!

So its sunday, I hate sundays because that means tomorrow is monday, back to work, back to clean eating,back to cardio, back to life! For now I'm going to cook some oatmeal,go workout and try and figure this blogger thing out and will return later!